Me

 

Information

  • Name:  Ryan McGrew

  • Age:  14

  • Location:  Wisconsin

  • Occupation:  Lawn Mower, and  soon to be a dishwasher at a local restaurant, maybe.  (Glamorous job, I know.)

  • AOL Screen Name:  screwm2

  • E-Mail:  r_mcgrew@hotmail.com

  • Status:  I have a girlfriend

About Me

      I am one of 6 people in my grade that listens to Grunge/Alternative music, so I am sort of an outcast.  My favorite band, of course, is Everclear.  I also like Nirvana, Beck, Foo Fighters, Sunspot, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Green Day, Filter, Rage Against the Machine, Weezer, Bush, the Toadies, the Meat Puppets, Stone Temple Pilots... Actually it is easier to list bands  I don't like.  Here goes Nine Days, Vertical Horizon, Offspring, Slipknot, Kittie, most hardcore music, any type of Rap, Hip Hop, Pop, these people can go to hell.  I play the bass.  I also have written a few songs, for my band Entropy,  and our first album is going to be called "Hey, if We had Talent We Would've Wasted it by Now."  So look for that in a store near you soon, J/K. 

Here are the songs that I wrote

  • My Head:

    Keep it away, isolate me

    in a cell and threw away my key

    Burning the bridges, cutting the ropes

    Killing my reality, my dreams, my hopes

    Your soul has been sought, but mine canít be bought

    They take away your voice, they take away your thought

     

    You say itís my head

    I say itís the outside world

    Itís those bad voices

    Itís those bad things

    He says Iím weird

    She says Iím to be feared

    Looking for friends

    Anything for the ends

    Feeling crazed

    Living dazed

     

    Turn up the dosage, let it flow through

    The doctor talking behind, watching you

    Treated like nothing

    Yet feeling something

    Head Spinning, air thinning

    Head out on another drug induced dream

    Canít smile, Canít lash out and scream

    Floating, Falling,

    Burning, Crawling

    How does it help!?!?

     

    You say itís my head

    I say itís the outside world

    itís those bad voices

    Itís those bad things

    He says Iím weird

    She says Iím to be feared

    Looking for friends

    Anything for the ends

    Feeling crazed

    Living dazed

     

    Keep it away, isolate me

    Lock me in a cell and throw away my key

    Burning the bridges, cutting the ropes

    Killing my reality, my dreams, my hopes

    Your soul has been sought, but mine canít be bought

    They take away your voice, they take away your thought

 

  • Twisting In The Love

    I used to be lonely

    Drifting through life

    An empty loser

    Looking for something

     

    Maybe it was nothing

    Maybe it was everything

    I was lost in it

    It was lost in me

    I was looking for it

    It was looking for me

     

    Then it hit me

    I was saved by her

    I had found her

    I felt the world

    I was no longer

    We were each other

    We lived as one

    In complete bliss

     

    It was everything

    It wasnít nothing

    I was lost in her

    She was lost in me

    I found her

    She found me

     

    She filled the void

    The place in my bed

    Quieted the voices in my head

    And I was happy

     

    Twisting in the love

    I felt no hate

    I felt no pain

    I felt no fear

    Twisting in the love

    I was at one with her

    She was the one

    Her, Her, Her, Her!

 

  • Climb the Ladder

    You look at me

    I look away

    You are so cool

    We never play

     

    Climb the Ladder!

     

    I can never talk to you

    I stutter

    I stammer

    I walk away, nothing new

     

    Climb the Ladder!

     

    You stare through me

    I always see you

    Everybody sees you

    They all look past me

     

    Climb the Ladder!

     

    I donít matter

    Climb the Ladder!

    It makes me madder

    Climb the Ladder!

    My body battered

    Climb the Ladder!

     

    I will win

    Not now

    In the end

    Make you bow

     

    Climb the Ladder!

     

    I will look at you

    You will look down

    I will find you

    Make you see

    You arenít better than me

     

    Climb the Ladder!

     

    Itís all that matters

    Climb that fucking Ladder

 

  • The Nothing of Negation

    Nothing is everything

    It is the start

    And the ending

    Nothing illuminates the dark

     

    Everything is a collection

    Of the middle

    It is where it has been

    Full of mindless dribble

     

    We are somewhere in the center

    Between light and dark

    Where no man dares enter

    You canít hear the dogs bark

     

    We are at the apocalypse

    In the nothing of negation

    Where god sits and sips

    On his beautiful amalgamation

     

    After this is done

    There is nothing

    There is only one

    So there is something

     

    We are rolling through

    Racing to the start

    There is nothing we can do

    Let it pull us through the dark

     

    We live in the now

    We canít live then

    Why ask how

    We are men

 

  • Placebo Day

    I woke up at noon

    I feel worthless

    Once again

     

    I walked out into

    Out into my house

    I searched for a place

    A place Iíd never been to

    I felt empty inside

    Still drowsy from sleep

    I felt that I had died

    And no one was left to weep

     

    The moon was down

    And the sun was out

    I walked around town

    All I wanted was to shout

    Shout about my hate!

    Shout about my pain!

    Shout about my love!

    Shout about my good!

    Times!

     

    I need to stop

    And get away

    From this placebo day

     

    Run far, Run fast

    Win the race

    Then get last

     

    Bleach my hair

    Rip my jeans

    I wanna be fair

    Like the dad of Francis Bean

     

    The night came after

    After that Placebo day

    Missing my laughter

    I began to play

    Play about my hate!

    Play about my pain!

    Play about my love!

    Play about my good!

    Times!

     

    I was waiting for the next dawning

    Under my neatly shaded awning

    Waiting for the next placebo day

    So I could find a new way to play

     

    Iíll just waste away

    Through this placebo day

    Iíll think my thoughts away

    In this placebo day

 

  • Teenage Innocence

    I was the punk rocker

    That you never suspected

    We shared that locker

    But I was never effected

    By this insanity

    That we call vanity

    You got all dressed up

    Only to be messed up

    By your peers

    Which awakened your brand new fears

    Teenage anguish is a lie

    We just pretend to be slow

    We do it to make you cry

    Weíre here to make you low

     

    And we never walked quite the same way

    And we never talked quite the same way

    And we never dressed how you wanted us to

    And we never acted how you wanted us to

    You wasted your teenage innocence

    Tell me, does that make any sense

    You let them through to you

    How come I never knew

    We left you far behind

    To waste away in that town

    But weíre sure you donít mind

    Cause youíre just a conformist clown

    Teenage anguish is a lie

    We just pretend to be slow

    We do it to make you cry

    Weíre here to make you low

    And we never walked quite the same way

    And we never talked quite the same way

    And we never dressed how you wanted us to

    And we never acted how you wanted us to

    I was the punk rocker

    That you never suspected

    We shared that locker

    But I was never effected

    By this insanity

    That we call vanity

    Teenage anguish is a lie

    We just pretend to be slow

    We do it to make you cry

    Weíre here to make you low

    And we never walked quite the same way

    And we never talked quite the same way

    And we never dressed how you wanted us to

    And we never acted how you wanted us to

 

  • Love You Like I Should

    You said you loved me

    But you wonít get close to me

    Do I have a disease

    Or a bad case of fleas

    I wanna hold you in my arms

    And love you like I should

    But you wonít let me touch you

    You wonít let me love you

    I wanna touch your soft skin

    I wanna smell your silky hair

    I wanna kiss your sweet lips

    I wanna love you like I should

    You turn away my advances

    But you still put me in your trances

    I feel so awkward around you

    Nothing I do is right

    Please donít yell at me

    It wasnít my fault

    I donít want to fight

    Not tonight

    Or ever again

    I love you so much

    It hurts inside

    I just wanna feel your touch

    It makes me warm inside

    I wanna touch your pale skin

    I wanna smell your dark hair

    I wanna kiss your red lips

    I wanna love you like I should

    I wanna love you like I should

    Like I should

    Love you like I should

    Love you like I could

    Like I could

    You told me you loved me

    But you wonít get close to me

    I try hard and you turn away

    You say someday

    It will be all right

    But until then letís never fight


 

My thoughts on life

  • It is ok to be lazy, as long as it doesn't interfere with your success in life
  • Believe what you want to believe, as long as you aren't a jack ass about what you believe
  • Sleep often and sleep for a long time
  • Listen to a hell of a lot of music, it will make you a better person
  • Live how you want to live, I'm too lazy to stop you
  • Don't be a conformist, why live in someone else's shadow?
  • Check out the enlightenment section at the Mega Crap Site of Doom
  • Don't go along with fads. They die out, and they you are left there looking like an idiot